555

Five Five Five

my motto for the year is 555

five days a weeks, work ends at five. every day is friday.

for you see, i over-worked and over-stressed and didnt have peace of mind for many moons that passed. so i hope that by reminding myself

• to feel relaxed like a friday ever day,
• to stop my work at 5pm and
• to only think about work from mon-friday

will let me enjoy my work more and become more efficient at it.

i derived this because on weds 3rd jan when we all returned to work-- i dragged myself to work. was late for half an hour and almost didnt want to turn up.

i cant imagine if i continue to behave like this, how can i ever work till i am 60?
i have thirty years to go and i think 30 years of drag will be too much.
so, i have to do something about it. about my mindset.

why do i hate work?

no, i do not hate it, i just hate the pressure.

so, the problem is the pressure, not the work.

do something about it, i said to myself. do something.

that's how i derieved at 555.

i am certain it will help my mental state.

i think my boss either recognised my work efforts or sensed my lack of motivation,, he kept telling me i am going to have a very good pay increament and bonus.

really? i didnt want to excite myself too much.

what is "very good"? one thousand dollars? that will be very good in my term.

i am so looking forward to my bonus so that i can be debt free.

i still owe my dad money. (no la, it is money dad gave us but i used it first. sis and i have a trust fund that we manage and will put to good use. thank you dad!)

so ya, i got to return the money to the trust fund and start saving for myself.

you know,,, i think i am finally ready to try for a baby. **happy grin**

though still scared... scared no money to buy milk powder, scared no help to take care of baby, scared no money to send to good school, etc etc etc. so much of hold back that i never dare to make the move.

but now i am really learning to have faith and trust. in God, in the Universe, in Life.

so i am sure all will be well La.

cheers!